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Tuesday, March 25, 2025

The need to Record and Remember

 Wow... I haven't blogged or posted a single thing since January! I've missed me! ;) (Original Post was in OCT. 2013 ... 12 years later I am right back in a similar position!)

I just published into a book my blog from the beginning until the last post in January and I am soooo excited to get it back and see what I recorded the past 5 or 6 years. Sadly, I also realized, the last year is going to be unremembered because I didn't write anything, unless future generations have access to my facebook page!
I have been having a very introspective few months and have not been happy with what I have found. I have been in a slump to say the least and have had a hard time seeing the good in anything. I will have brief moments where a little light shines and then I am back to the darkness of feeling inadequate, stuck and hopeless. I think a big part of that is not getting my thoughts out of my head... so I am back to blogging for me and I hope through doing so I can find myself again. Find the happy and the good. I truly believe that as we create on any level, we become closer to our creator and that is what I need to keep me in the light. I feel like I have lost myself little by little over the past year and I look forward to finding myself piece by piece.

So funny how life repeats itself! I clearly haven't learned all the lessons and I think that is why it is so important to write it down and record it! 

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Week 3 MTC Nov. 11, 2017

Dear Family & Friends,

I will admit, I am ready to leave the MTC and see what my mission has in store. What can I say? You can only stay here so long. I feel bad for the Japan Missionaries in our residence who have been here for 6 weeks, 3 more to go. They aren't very fond of us for some reason. Too loud or something, I am not sure. They just said they haven't liked the English Missionaries the last 6 weeks. As much as I am going to miss my District being one and always doing things together, I know there comes a time where we will part for two years and that time is this Wednesday. That's right. I have already been on my mission nearly a month now and I leave for California on Wednesday, the 15th at 11:50. I think I may have P-Day the Tuesday before. My flight leaves around 4:15pm and we arrive in Sacramento around 5:30pm. Quick flight! 
I have learned some about myself this past week. I guess more significantly is that my teachers, District, and other missionaries who have heard my testimony have told me that I am very bold when bearing my testimony; I don't sugarcoat, just say it how it is and as it is the reality of it all. They tell me every time that when I hear my testimony, it is something they can't argue against, deny, or that they know what I am saying is true. One Elder who acted as an investigator said that I know how to relate to others and "get to the heart" of it all without needless teaching. I started to notice that that is where my companion and I differentiate when teaching. He tends to explain everything he knows about the gospel principle being taught while I strive to keep it simplified so that they, as investigators, understand without feeling bombarded with information. Afterall, I am a very simple man. 

Guess who I got to hear on Tuesday? President Russel M. Nielsen was the speaker for Tuesday night's devotional! He spoke on the Atonement, missionary work, and striving to become more like Christ. I cannot remember all he said, but the spirit was so strong! Afterwards, we went to our classes to talk about it and our Branch President, President Samuelian, came into our room and said he felt a strong prompting that he was suppose to speak to us instead of the original class he planned to meet with. He had even written on his hand earlier today the change of plans and arrangements. Sure enough, we found out why he was promoted to meet with us. By the end of it, all of us had shared very personal parts of our stories that led to why we are here and why we have a testimony and we were all in tears. I spoke of a time I had a dream after EFY when I saw ,y younger self, at about age 14, which was the age where I began to fall away. I remember looking at a smiling face, which turned to confusion and wonder when he realised it was me standing in front of me. The words I spoke were of simplicity: "Don't you quit, young man...you keep going....you keep trying. Know that he loves you and atoned for you, so that you could make it to where I am now. I love you and I know you can do it." I then told my District "Did you notice that I never spoke of the things that young boy would go through, the sins he would wrestle with, the hatred he would have, the sadness he would experience at the funerals of his friends, the fact that he would leave the Iron Rod, turn some away from the church, or that he would have severed his relationship with Christ. Not once did I say it, because I came to know that it was because I went through tough times, I am able to be the missionary I am today. As much as it hurt to know that that young boy would be darkened, I knew he had to endure it to be stronger and wiser today. So this I tell to all of you who will no doubt go through tough times: Don't you quit, you keep going, you keep trying. I love you all and I know you are stronger than you realize." Tears everywhere, it was a mess! Turns out we were the only District in the Branch to have been crying XD 

Investigators this week were not nearly as well haha because we taught Laree twice and then she stood us up, Vann and Greenwood, as well as two sisters and has not responded to emails. As for Oscar? Yeah he started liking us and accepted our message well, but flew down to El Salvador to be with family for 7 months. So yeah!

Alright, let's take a little break so I can talk about some funny or nice awesome moments outside spiritual classes and devotionals. 

The first week here, I had a dream where I saw Elder Greenwood's girlfriend walking up to me with flowers. Yeah, sounds bad already. Anyways, she walks up to me and tells me to give the flowers to Greenwood. That's it. Yep. So I tell Greenwood and he looks at me and says "It is nice to see you are loyal even in dreams. I appreciate it man." So I learned that Greenwood says as much about me as I do him in our emails, so he gets a package from his girlfriend that has Skittles and Twix. On The Twix, is a note that reads: Elder Farley, thanks for being such a great friend to Greenwood. Best of luck in CA! Elder Vann got mad and shouted "What? I am his companion for heck sake!" 
A few days later, Hannah who everyone calls my girlfriend, sends me a package which has Skittles and Twix which says "Dear Elder Farley & Elder Greenwood, here are some treats..." My companion says the exact same thing Elder Vann said earlier XD Sister Gray tells us the next day after we told her what happened "Your bromance is my favorite thing."

Another quick funny moment. After gym-time, Greenwood and I were walking back to residence and Hawkes and Vann were telling us to hurry it up and that we need to walk faster, but we did not listen. They were way ahead of us and we were taking our time, just in time for two sisters to offer us Krispy Kreme haha! They came up to us because we crossed their path and said "Do you Elders want doughnuts?" Safe to say, the other two were not happy that they missed their chance to get doughnuts. I just said "This is what happens when you take your time."

Speaking of gym, I have grown to like Volleyball. I could see myself turning it into a hobby and I honestly would not mind playing it for college if I got good enough. I have gotten so much better at it and it is really fun! A few sisters amd elders always ask Greenwood and I if we are going to be playing that day.

Okay, another weird weird dream. Weirdest one yet, as voted by the District. I was in Africa with another person, no idea who. We came across this village, with mud huts and very skinny people. Starving it looks like. Their village chief comes up to me and asks for food to feed his people because a famine had swept their land. I reached into my pocket and out came one chocolate chip cookie, which I gave to the chief. His eyes went wide with a smile across his face "This, this will feed my people for days!" Confused as heck, I turned towards my friend and he gave me a box of cookies out of nowhere, which I in turn gave to the chief, who then said "Now this, this will feed my people for weeks, months!" Apparently, the village had small stomachs and would eat little bits of it and call it a meal. They would cut one cookie up into 16ths and eat one piece every day or so. I woke up because Hawkes turned the lights on. Elder Rowe says he knows the meaning of my dream. Here it is:

This is Elder Rowe, here's my interpretation. The cookie represents the Gospel. Now even when Elder Farley shares the gospel a little bit, it can feed a whole bunch of people for some time. However, when he shares more of the gospel with more people it will feed them for much longer and will feed more people, just like sharing more cookies. We don't know if these people have to be African tribal folks though, that's the only problem. We'll see.

Yeah, so that is his philosophy. On the topic of dreams, Sister Barnett asked me this morning if I sleep well and I responded that I keep waking up randomly and she said "That's because you keep appearing in my dreams! We went ghost hunting on a lake, me and you and some other person and an orb came towards us from the glacier mountain and it was sketchy but for some reason, because I knew you hunted ghosts, I felt safe and it turned out to be a fun hunt!" Sister Gray then looks at me and says "I had a dream about you too! We were fishing on a lake, just me and you and I think Greenwood. Can't remember. Anyways, we were on a boat and it was fun." Vann looks at me and asks "Why is it only you?" XD

On a bad note, we had a heated debate last night, and Hawkes and I kind of fought on it, but it's whatever. I just brought up some verses in Mosiah where it looked like it supported a trinity view and was seeking a discussion to explain what it meant, in case we met Christians who may ask, but it ended up heated because Hawkes took offense when I later said "The members are not perfect, but the gospel is." I saw it as we accept faults but we strive to be better and he looked at it as we are the perfect church, no fault, just perfection and told me that I needed to start loving the church, which I never said I did not. But yeah, it got heated, but we ended up resolving it to an extent.

To end on a spiritual note, during class yesterday, we watched a video "Christlike Attributes" which showed many words to describe Christ while showing his life time. Afterwards, we were asked to write on the board which had written in big letters across the top "Because of Christ..." and when prompted, to write what is possible in our lives because of him. I have a picture attached and ask that y'all ponder these words and watch the video yourself. It is truly inspiring. I love you all!

With Love,

Elder Farley






Saturday, November 4, 2017

Week 2 MTC part 2...

Oh and something funny just happened to me. So me, Greenwood, Vann, and Hawkes are eating dinner and needless to say, it was not a good dinner. Elder Greenwood looks at me and says "This is just not that good." 
I said "Well, the best we can do is drink our root beer then. You know that scripture 'eat, drink, and be merry' "
Greenwood finishes "For tomorrow we die."
And we toasted, and Hawkes gives us a weird look while Vann says "Did you just really toast to that?!"
Oh boy, we had a good laugh XD 
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We were asked the other day to write down what words we would say about the gospel if we were nearing the end to our mortal life...Excerpt from my class journal:

If I were to know of my last days and to say my final words, my final testimony, it would be...

I am a changed man because of Christ. I am a clean and purified man because of Christ. I am a better man because of Christ.
I testify of Jesus Christ and his precious Atonement. I am of certainty of his redeeming grace and unconditional love. In the midst of my darkest hours and my endless sorrow and hatred, he reached and stretched forth his loving hand and simply held it there until I took it. No matter the circumstance, he was ready to help me. No matter the sins, he still loved me and had already atoned for me, so that I may stand blameless before him. No matter the pride, he humbled my soul. No matter the tears, he gave me peace and comfort. He is my rock, my comforter, my teacher, my example, my savior and he is my redeemer. I testify to you that he lives and loves me and you with eternal, everlasting love. I testify that no challenge is too great, no trial too long, and no pit of darkness and sin too deep that the light of Christ's Atonement cannot shine. I testify to each one of you that I know, in the deepest desires of my heart, that these words I speak are true. I know these things to be true in the name of my beloved savior, teacher, and friend...Jesus Christ, Amen.

Sincerely,
Elder Farley 


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Week #2 MTC Nov. 4, 2017

Dear Family & Friends,

Well, the MTC continues to be quite the experience! I have learned so much more about the gospel and my testimony has grown a lot. I have grown so much closer to my District and we consider each other family. We now always eat together and go to gym together, encourage each other, and laugh together. I have no doubt that we will be keeping in touch over our missions and long after. With that, we have gotten to know a little bit more about each other and our true characters. While I do get along with my companion and we are close, Elder Greenwood is my closest friend here. We do everything together and our jokes are the best  :) He doesn't always get along with his companion, Elder Vann, because Elder Vann is always on his case about rules, how he can't talk about his girlfriend back home, and he is very strict on bed time. Once it hits 10:00, literally every 5 minutes he will remind everyone that bed time is 10:30. I am not the first to say this, but it gets on my nerves to. Good news is, despite Elder Vann's terrible puns and being a stickler, we still have good times with him. He is a funny guy and most ironically, he is from Dallas but reminds all of us of a stereotypical good Mormon boy. Literally! I mean when Elder Rowe said that he though Vann was the funniest Elder in our District, Greenwood immediately questioned it saying "What?! Elder Vann and his stupid puns??" (Needkess to say, his puns have thrown Greenwood off the charts :)) On the topic of this, my companion, Elder Hawkes, and I had our first argument. He had scheduled an appointment with an investigator for 7:30 (which was gym time) without letting me know. Reason why it upset me was because we had previously discussed not planning during eating time or exercise time. When I found out, he told me he didn't need gym time or didn't seem to care to go, so he didn't think it was a big deal. We ended up skipping gym time and he promised to never schedule it during gym time (He did it twice). Other than that, I like him as a companion. He is strict and a tad prideful but honestly, I still think it's his calling as a District Leader. Elder Greenwood and I love to mess with him and he takes it well haha we are too much for the kid sometimes. He kind of reminds me of a shy version of McCade. About his height, loves to exercise and he is stronger than most of us, and seemed to have been a lady's man Haha! 

Anyways, enough talk about that. Brie was asking about if I had any funny stories this week so here are some! So we had Devotional on Tuesday and I was sitting next to Sister Barnett and Elder Greenwood. Barnett saw two Elders where one fell asleep on the other's shoulder while the other had falken asleep with his head back. She leaned over and pointed them out to us and when Devotional was over, I looked at Greenwood and said "I honestly think falling asleep on your shoulder wouldn't be so weird." And he replied "That is how you know it's true friendship and brotherhood." And the next morning during breakfast he fell asleep and his head landed on my shoulders :)

Another moment was when my District and another were combined to watch our teachers teach a pretend investigator who was my companion.  After a few minutes, my teacher, Brother Bate asked us to share our thoughts and Elder Greenwood and I had our hands raised and so did another Elder and that Elder was picked to share the thought and when he did, he was asked to switch Brother Bate spots and teach the investigator. Greenwood looks at me real quick and says "Don't raise your hand anymore." (It was funnier being there)

Okay, so another was during lunch and Greenwood leans over to Hawkes and says "I have a compromise. Because Elder Farley and I like to stay up and have bonding time with Elder Rowe and Schneiter, I say Elder Vann and Farley switch beds so you two can sleep peacefully on the same bunk and Farley isn't so far away." Hawkes, shaking his head, just says "No no no, not happening." And Greenwood shakes his head and leans to talk to me "We gon' start a revolution." I responded "While they be sleeping, we will take action." Yeah, we are still in the same beds we have been in since Day 1.

We have started teaching investigators, one of which was a non-member and the other we are not sure even though some Elders told us she was so I guess so! She just asked tough questions. The non-member was our favorite. Her name is Aubrey and she grew up Baptist. She started learning more about the church when her friends and I think her boyfriend brought it up to her. She met with some Provo Missionaries and decided to participate in the TRC Program at the MTC to learn more. I felt a prompting to talk to her and I understand now why I did. I knew she was different from the rest. Elder Hawkes and I taught the Gospel of Jesus Christ, Prayer, Holy Ghost and how to recognise him, The Restoration of The Gospel, The Atonement, and the Plan of Salvation with both of our investigators but in different order according to their needs. Teaching the Plan of Salvation because we were more engaging with the investigators and they were more comfortable with us. Elder Hawkes and I are super happy because we hear Aubrey is considering baptism! We miss teaching her already and she plans to learn more and both of our investigators may even stay in touch. It was an incredible experience! One of my favorite moments while teaching was also a funny one. We were teaching Emily (agnostic and asks hard questions) about the Plan and she kept asking about why we needed Jesus and why Heavenly Father couldn't just "BAM everyone is saved and everything is perfect. Amen!" And after Elder Hawkes tried using a few scriptures and explain to the best of his knowledge, I felt the urge to ask "Hold up here, okay, you've seem Lord of The Rings, right?"
"Yes of course!"
"The Eagles! Why couldn't they just carry Frodo and Sam to Mount Doom and drop the ring and BAM everyone is saved from evil and the movie comes to a close."
"Uh because then the movie would be pointless and wouldn't make sense."
"Exactly my point. Without Jesus Christ and his Atonement, the Plan would be pointless and wouldn't exactly make sense."
Safe to say, she understood the analogy. I did come to learn that the investigators love my stories and analogies that they admit to writing about them in their journals. Pretty cool! I remember the other day when we were practicing teaching with a random companion and a random Elder or Sister to observe or be an investigator with a unique story. I was placed with Elder Cook and the investigator was another Elder, forgot his name, Pratt I think who played a man he knew back home named Todd. Todd felt like he did not need church in his life and felt he could just read the Bible, be a good person, and call it good. He said he felt like his Mormon friends had something that he didn't and he simply wanted to know what it was. Elder Cook and the Sister observing kept teaching what they were and I tried my best to help. I then decided to share a little bit about myself once being in his shoes and did not see a need for those things either but later saw how it blessed my life. The investigator, when evaluating us as teachers said that yeah we all made good points but we were taking shots in the dark and I happened to take the right shot. I thought that was really nice to hear because I felt inadequate with the way the others were teaching (which seemed flawless to me). It goes to show that it does not matter! 

I have been told a lot since I have gotten here that I have a hinted "Western-Tex" accent I guess. Elder Rowe says he loves the way Greenwood and I pronounce our "Th" I am not sure what he means but okay! My District wants me to sing country and so maybe. Maybe. I really only sang once and that was when Elder Greenwood and I sang "Misty Mountains" and we were pretty good I'd say! It was a funny but awesome moment. Anyways, that is a little bit about my week!

With Love,
Elder Farley 
                                    As awkward as we look, this is our only picture as a District so far (second day
                         at the MTC so that explains why we look so awkward around each other)


Elder Hawkes & I  (He's the blonde one)


Mirror Selfie starring Elder Farley, Elder Greenwood, Elder Hawkes, and Elder Vann


Elder Hawkes & Elder Vann




 Elder Greenwood & I


 Elder Greenwood & I


Provo Temple

Saturday, October 28, 2017

Week #1 MTC Oct. 28, 2017

Dear Family & Friends,

Well? The MTC isn't too bad at all. I am actually doing alright which is weird because many around me keep talking about how stressed they are and others are even crying themselves to sleep. I guess I am just here and simply chilling. After all, it's only chaos haha. I was able to get settled in no problem and to adapt to the MTC faster than most it seems. 

I love my district here. Very funny and friendly people who happen to be pretty sarcastic at times as well, which is nice to see because I no longer have to be concerned about offending others haha! I am writing home on my tablet while I am waiting for laundry to be done, so I am unable to send in pictures from my camera, but I will get to a computer and send those pictures. Not much, just a few of my companion and my district. 

My district has 4 sisters and 6 elders. Our missions consists of Roseville, California and St. George, Utah. In my zone/residence building, the missionaries I have been in contact with are going to Santa Rosa, California...Anchorage, Alaska...Colombia, South Carolina...and Winnipeg, Canada. All English Speaking. Elder Saxton is two doors down from me, so I get to see him often. I did run into Elder Evans twice. Once during my first 20 minutes arriving, because he was walking with his companion eating a bag of chips and second when he found me after lunch to let me know he is being sent off to the Brazil MTC on Monday.  Elder Schneider is one of my roommates and in my district (the Lord of The Rings fan I met before MTC). My companion, Elder Hawkes, and I get along well and I wouldn't say we get on each other's nerves. I mean, after all, I didn't get angry with him when he forgot his ID and we had to use lunch time to find it. He was assigned  District Leader, which makes me the only permanent Senior Companion in my district. Elder Hawkes is the quiet one. He isn't very shy but he is very much focused on being a missionary and I think the only thing that kind of bugged me about him was when he found out he was District Leader, it was THEN that he started talking to everyone and immediately displaying a sense of confidence with a hint of pride. Trust me, you could tell. Other than that, I appreciate that he takes his duty seriously and he isn't a pain in the butt. We are both small town guys too. He is from Paul, Idaho. He listens to country and he is understanding. He had a fallout with the gospel at one point too so we can connect quite a bit. One of my favorite Elders is Elder Greenwood. He is from North Carolina and is serving in St. George. We tend to laugh the most when we talk. We can joke about anything. The Elders I roommate with tend to get along really well so we all enjoy downtime to talk and get to know each other. It is what we refer to as bro time. 

It has only been 3 days and I have already ran into a few funny moments. One was when Elder Schneider and I went to use the restroom at our residence,  he looks at me and says "I just realized that I am about to take my first poop at the MTC!" He enters his stall and I went down a few stalls and ended up next to another Elder who I could tell has been there a while, because he simply said "So, first poop at the MTC, huh?" 
"Nope, wrong person, it's my buddy a few stalls down."
"Ahhh well where you from?"
Welcome to the MTC, where stall convos seem to be normal. And yes, the other Elders and I had a pretty good laugh about it when I approached Elder Schneider about what he got me into. Oh and thanks for the Laxative pills, I can now help other Elders who have THAT problem, but I guess it is a real issue here because Sister Storms got a letter from her mom saying "Have you been pooping?" XD. Elder Schneider wasn't feeling too hot last night and Elder Rowe (his companion) simply asked "Did you take Elder Farley's laxatives?" 
Another funny moment was our first night and Elder Greenwood pulled out a picture of Jesus from the top of his bunk that he noticed right before sleeping and Elder Schneider just looks at him and says "I guess that's just a sign that Jesus is always watching!"
Elder Rowe is a funny guy too. One night we were all talking about girls back home. Elder Schneider confessed his love for his neighborhood crush right before leaving, but he did so over Snapchat and while drugged up from getting his wisdom teeth out. Elder Vann didn't really care to date much I guess. Elder Greenwood showed us his personalized calendar which was him and his girlfriend. I simply talked about Hannah because she was my last and we are very close and showed them a picture from my farewell. Then, Elder Rowe says "Well here is my girl..." and shows us a picture of him with a stick figure drawn right by him. Needless to say, we are some funny guys!
The Sisters are great too. Probably the most sarcastic, but you can't be sad or angry around them. I would say the closest group would be me, Elder Hawkes, Elder Vann, Elder Greenwood, Sister Barnett, and Sister Gray. We do a lot together.
Today, as a District, we went to the Provo Temple to do Endowments. Made it through a lot smoother than last time haha and it was amazing to be with my friends and do such a sacred ordinance together. Our testimonies have grown and we are all encouraging each other to be better each day and to strengthen our relationship with our Heavenly Father. Elder Hawkes and I are teaching two investigators on Monday, one of which we are almost sure is not a member. We felt a prompting to talk to one or the other (He said one and I said the other) so we went with both and the Holy Ghost led us to people who we clicked well with and who we understand. We are excited to teach both of them :) Elder Hawkes has trouble with introductions and small talk so so tend to lead there and I find that I do really well with it. One investigator, Emily, spent a lot of time in Huntsville and loves small towns. She is agnostic and isn't sure what to believe. Aubrey is Baptist and somewhat shy and socially awkward which makes her pretty funny to talk to. I see how Dad can talk to people. You simply find one thing in common and it leads to another and another. I hope we can teach them well and I plan on helping Elder Hawkes with introductions.
As far as further spiritual feelings, it has all been rather personal this past week. Nothing too amazing other than a greater desire to serve and acknowledging that I am accomplishing my mission statement: To serve God, my country,  and family. Devotional is tomorrow so we will have to wait for more spiritual experiences! Endowment was spiritual but I cannot share much on it publicly, as Temple Ordinances are sacred. 
BTW, only the sisters have received mail so step it up, the Elders need love XD But if you could send me some long sleeves/flannels, snacks, and Mom, if you could go to CTR Ring Shop and get me that elvish CTR Ring,  that would be bueno. It is getting colder faster and and as far as P Day I am lacking warm clothing. Anything else anyone would like to send me, I'll gladly look forward to it! I love you all and I look forward to hearing from all of you. I can't remember my address so Mom, if you could post it in this email and the blog, that would be great. Love You!

With Love,
Elder Farley
 Me and my companion, Elder Hawkes 
A surprise picture of Elder Vann and Elder Greenwood
Elder Evans And Elder Farley
Elder Evans and Elder Farley 

They think they're funny 

T

Elder Farley and Elder Saxton (Ian)

The need to Record and Remember

  Wow... I haven't blogged or posted a single thing since January! I've missed me! ;) (Original Post was in OCT. 2013 ... 12 years l...